Losing Interest in This Blog….
July 22nd, 2008This is not a good sign. The truth is, I’m bored with this blog. It’s so…. proper.
I started this to make money. Somebody said I’m a very talented writer, and can make money blogging. I quickly learned about Google AdSense. And just as quickly am learning that, unless you have a very high traffic website, with lots of people clicking the ads, you make precious little money.
I am writing this as if I were talking to a large audience of people from my new town, Mt. Shasta City, face to face. This means I’m toning down the sexuality I express here.
But the truth is, sex and sexuality turn me on. My sex fantasies include women as well as men.
There is a passion, a juice in Truth, that just isn’t found in the usual socialized politeness. “Hello!” “Hello.” “How are you?” “I’m fine.” (my dog died, I haven’t had sex in years, and I hate my evil landlady, but other than THAT, life is just SWELL!) “I’m fine, also.” (I worry about my weight, and how the hell does anybody resist eating an entire birthday cake anyway….. gee, what’s your secret?)
And today, I am hearing stories of people who got fired or in deep trouble, for TELLING THE TRUTH. I mean, what kind of idiot gets upset when you tell them THE TRUTH about their stupidity, their pettiness, their personal failings? (Every kind of idiot. Where the word “idiot” means “one who lives in denial”. As in, “I don’t have a drinking problem! I only had 6 beers! YOU’RE the one with the problem! YOU are the one who asked me why are you such an asshole after just ONE beer….. )
The thing is, how to tell the truth KINDLY. And don’t be afraid to call stupidity and pettiness for what it is.
I want to be a pron star. I want to be a rock star. I want to be famous. OK, fame without the drawbacks, such as people saying nasty things about me (how DARE she do those things *I* have secretly dreamed of doing for YEARS, but I never did face my sense of inadequacy…..)
Calling people on their shit is a fine art. BEING called on MY shit is something I just hate. It’s embarassing. I am more driven than average to a self-imposed high standard of personal behavior. ( I HATE criticism. I just hate it. Whether it’s true or not.)
If only I ruled the world. Ever feel that way? Ever wish you could control the uncontrollable? Manage the unmanageable? (Don’t you wish you knew the difference between the things you cannot change and those you can? Now THAT takes honesty.)
Oh, my, I’ve had me some sexy fantasies and dreams lately. Roger Earl of Foghat, Brian May of Queen, and Bill W. of A.A. all played starring roles (rolls!) Let’s just say I really enjoy kissing, oral sex (giving and receiving) and that I am a true Rock N Roll groupie. Prince (Rogers Nelson) looks good to me, also.
And my God, have you SEEN the BABES in this town? Perky young breasts barely contained by tank tops. Long legs encased in short-shorts. Young guys with no shirt and muscles. Nipples I could lick and pinch (both sexes) if I were allowed. I find the small of the back, exposed by ladies’ low-rider tight jeans, particularly hot. That area of the body is called “the sacrum” and that is where the KUNDALINI lives.
KUNDALINI is female snake energy. It is fire. It normally sleeps at the base of the spine, coioled around 3/5 time, like a cobra snake. When awakened, it crawls up the spine like a snake of fire. Fire Snake. It’s like Dragons rising up in order to mate. If you have ever read Anne McCaffrey’s “Dragonrider” series of sci-fi/fantasy novels, you know what I am talking about.
Finally, this blog needs more pictures. I am assigning myself more erotic art! As well as more g-rated photography around town. Guess it’s time for a summertime photo shoot!
